If, when I was having all these problems with Vallejo in the 1990s and even the early 2000s, I had gotten in touch with the Peruvians, they would have taken care of it all. I should also have gotten in touch in the late 1980s, when I had different problems. But especially when I had all those problems of the 1990s.
Seriously, I did not realize this. But had we had the Internet, it would have occurred to me to find out. My student says the Internet is the most revolutionary thing that has happened since the discovery of America. Do you think?
He is an archipelago.
Trilce is filled with, even structured by fragments of the myth of Inkarrí.
From Los heraldos negros we know that a huaco is
…el pichón de cóndor desplumado
por latino arcabuz
[u]n fermento de Sol;
¡levadura de sombra y corazón!
The poetic subject is a solar being, latent but about to break forth. “Nostalgias imperiales” is an ironic title.
When I return from Peru I will set up course books on the web for spring, contact the high schools, and start building my course websites. I will call the handyman.
I will be in a position to write every day, and do things like yoga.
On authority and authoritarianism
My colleagues refuse to compromise with each other at all over methods for the multi-section courses.
Yet when I said one of my sections was so woefully unprepared that I was going to reteach material from earlier semesters while allowing students who are doing well to form a group and work ahead, and also offering them the opportunity to attend my other section which was doing better, they said: are you allowed to do that?
But why would I not allow myself to do that, if they all allow themselves to do whatever they want including not require students to form sentences? I do not understand the rigidity, and I am from California, and from the olden days.
I am thinking of having a flamenco unit in one of my spring courses, and this is an interesting collection of lyrics. What do you recommend?
Filed under Questions, Songs
On standing up for oneself, I did it seriously a few days ago and it has made a difference, or meant a shift.
Key words from meditation are disturbing and set adrift.
There are many perceptions to record and many things to say, but my next long meditation will be on Maringouin, our strange lives here.
It is time to actually read Anti-Oedipus and the discussions of it from those days, in places like this.
Here is my Vallejo problem: my issue is psychic invasion, and I have a visceral reaction to the idea of subject shattering.
“Then that is a non-liberatory, but binding, shattering,” someone said.
What is fractured subjectivity in and for Vallejo?
…torture, is what is self-imposed, that is to say, is what I have a choice not to do, now.
I have great difficulty distinguishing between depression … laziness … incompetence … refusal to use good strategies … self sabotage that is bad … and activities that may look like self sabotage but are not, because they are messages: “you should not be doing this / you should not be doing this in this way.”
I have so many unfinished papers, it is a terrible shame, and so many other unfinished things, but it is all since Reeducation. The only part of it that is a mere practical problem has to do with life at my current institution, where I have not put up enough resistance (due to my Reeducated training, of course, but still I have not put up enough resistance).
By chance I found today the manuscript I was working on at the time of Reeducation, that I did not finish or could not finish and also decided was not good. It is very good and it is vigente even today. With it was a transcript I had made of a session with this psychotherapist I was seeing, because I was so outraged. I had not remembered exactly how outrageous this individual’s tone was. It was utterly breathtaking.
So it is no wonder I have difficulty speaking. I would like to get over this, however.