The writing group is ill so I am calling people here since this is the check-in day. I am reiterating the prompt from last week, on being a happy writer. It is good and applies to more than theses; like all writing advice it applies to academic work generally and I in particular would do well to apply it to academic work generally.
This week’s goals were: finish other application, finish abstract for conference, actually finish those 500 words or more.
Actual accomplishments were: continued work toward abstract for that conference and also continued work toward the 500 words. Useful research. The feeling that the project is really moving. Immersion; enjoyment.
Change in general plan is: the deadline for the conference turns out to be at the end of the month, not this week. So I did not miss it. I am going to see whether I can actually write a full draft of the paper itself by the time the abstract is due. At the same time I will work on the abstract. I want to send the abstract before the deadline, however.
Goals for next week are: the abstract, the other application, the 500 words; state income tax, finally rejoin my two remaining professional associations for the year. Exercise; buy sandpaper and other materials for refurbishing the deck.
Analysis: My house was broken into this week and dealing with this is where some of my time and energy went. I also had a couple of teaching glitches — people think my classes are too hard (which I think is ridiculous) and this set off my C-PTSD or whatever it is I have. My academic trauma is about teaching and I would like to handle it better. I will just keep on being the professor.
In general with these various psychic wounds I have, I think it is important to isolate certain specific incidents I want to heal from. For instance: specific words said during a few drunken beat-downs, not something more drawn out or worse. Some other incidents that again, need not be interpreted as portents of the rest of life. I think it is fair to say one can clear oneself of things.
In the patriarchal and Gothic logic of mainstream American healing everything takes a long time and much sacrifice and penitence attends one. In another model of thinking one can simply crown oneself cured.
Today was my day off and I had forgotten this. I am glad since I did not get a great deal done. In the morning I did some work for a course and thought about some of the week’s issues (work related). My new alarm was installed. I had coffee with a friend and spoke with another, and continued to process the week’s issues (life related). Now I am finished and it is getting dark.