Suicide note, via Clarissa. He sounds like a great person.
That was a post from January 10, 2011 and I am moving it here and adding to it for the upcoming anniversary since this is a very interesting case.
Zeller speaks of “the darkness” and his is very serious but I know in a smaller way what it is to be pursued in this manner and to battle the darkness back. One of the difficult things about this is that you cannot tell people because they will demand you be cured, possibly of something other than what you have. I had this, and it was limiting me, but people did not want to recognize it if it were not willing to be what they wanted it to be and respond to what they thought it should.
I think, to answer Zeller’s question, that a lot of people have this to some degree, and I do not think it is well understood. Zeller talks about it very fluently and I think there might have been a treatment for him, if it had been invented. This darkness is of course what got to Arguedas as well, although Alberto Moreiras and others can give additional reasons for his huis-clos.
Priscilla Archibald wants to depoliticize Arguedas’ suicide and I also think this is the more revealing view. When Reeducation started I was giving a seminar on Vallejo and Arguedas and this was used as evidence I was damaged — they had to be, so I had to be.
Vallejo writes as though he had it but I think he is the one who looks more like a classic depressive, if one must make a diagnosis; other words that come to mind would be difficulty, awareness, grief. Here is one of the brief biographies of him one can find; these are growing increasingly different.
I have not read the latest quasi-biography of Vallejo (that I know of offhand) and I should. It is short and by Silva-Santisteban, and it is from 2010, and it accompanied an exposition. I have said this before but someone should write a serious biography of this poet, because things just do not add up coherently yet.
Look at this video, a walking tour of his early life in Paris.
I am oddly on the track of this person and I would like to sit down and just keep digging until I hit the vein. This was what I was going to do originally and, pace everything else I have said on the matter it is what I would have done without Reeducation. I would be famous now, because I am one of the designated hitters for this, I can tell.
That could mean Vallejo has to go into the present book, which still needs a form. Indeed I do urgently need a framework for this project.