Like the people who have to want to stop drinking and must make the decision themselves, or the people I know now who are going to have to decide, themselves, to learn to use certain software (or not), I feel I must decide to want to improve my experience at and of work.
I always wanted this of course, so I think that by want I mean something more like insist. This means bringing a different attitude, one endowed with far more lucidity and agency than I am used to having.
In Reeducation we had to renounce our core strengths and our confidence and this was an extreme error — one I have allowed to compound subsequently.
Being able to say “you have to want,” however, presupposes a fairly high degree of strength. It presupposes you are able to be present and that you have an environment in which it is possible to maintain a clear mind.