“You have to stand up for yourself,” I was told.
I agree but I also say I am not even sure what that would be. When I “don’t stand up for myself” I think that what I am doing is being polite and fair and realizing I may have faults. Also, when I have stood up for myself I have been told I had no right and that I was being unreasonable.
I really do want to be the person I was and who had self-respect and so on, but I have been told so often that this was wrong, tried so hard to stop being that person, that it is hard to come back.
Yet I can do it at certain moments.
NOTE: It is Sobrevilla who chooses these examples about things coming from outside language, or things which cannot be expressed in language: los golpes en la vida; y esto no fue posible; hoy sufro solamente.