You cannot do it while tearing yourself down. I told Reeducation I could not afford the kind of self destruction it wanted and I was right. I told the academic advisors that my problem was not not knowing how to write but having had my hands cut off, as it were, and they did not believe me but what I said was true.
In order to write academically, I find, and to some extent also creatively (but not bureaucratically–that is much easier), you have to be in a position to be really objective on the topic and on yourself the writer. This a point the academic advisors forget — they seem to think the whole issue is Time Management, Not Being Lazy, Not Being Willing to Do Unpleasant Things, and so on. They assume one lacks self-control and submission, attributes and activities in which I am all too well trained. Authors have authority, and you have to be in a position to take authority.
I, in any case, have to be able to feel crystal clear, lucid, unconcerned with questions such as whether I have the right to be doing what I am doing. Only this way can I maintain the right proximity to and also distance from the material.