Even more for Henry Miller: the unsafe space

  • Work on one thing at a time until finished.
  • Start no more new books, add no more new material to ‘Black Spring.’
  • Don’t be nervous. Work calmly, joyously, recklessly on whatever is in hand.
  • Work according to Program and not according to mood. Stop at the appointed time!
  • When you can’t create you can work.
  • Cement a little every day, rather than add new fertilizers.
  • Keep human! See people, go places, drink if you feel like it.
  • Don’t be a draught-horse! Work with pleasure only.
  • Discard the Program when you feel like it—but go back to it next day.Concentrate. Narrow down. Exclude.
  • Forget the books you want to write. Think only of the book you are writing.
  • Write first and always. Painting, music, friends, cinema, all these come afterwards.

MORNINGS:
If groggy, type notes and allocate, as stimulus.

If in fine fettle, write.

AFTERNOONS:

Work of section in hand, following plan of section scrupulously. No intrusions, no diversions. Write to finish one section at a time, for good and all.

EVENINGS:

See friends. Read in cafés.

Explore unfamiliar sections — on foot if wet, on bicycle if dry.

Write, if in mood, but only on Minor program.

Paint if empty or tired.

Make Notes. Make Charts, Plans. Make corrections of MS.

Note: Allow sufficient time during daylight to make an occasional visit to museums or an occasional sketch or an occasional bike ride. Sketch in cafés and trains and streets. Cut the movies! Library for references once a week.

One final note: people always said that the reason I wanted a research job was arrogance, and the reason I would take a research job outside academia over a teaching job within it was fickleness and lack of dedication. But those are not the reasons. The reasons have to do with taste and interests, but also with the fact that cliquish teaching institutions are unsafe spaces for me particularly–tight little family-type atmospheres are just hard for me to navigate.

I am depressed, says a psychologist, and if I behaved and thought differently, I would “manage” better. I am not depressed, says a doctor who knows me in real life and sees me in action — I merely have anxiety, panic, and claustrophobia as rational reactions to a real situation. It is possible to have these afflictions without being depressed, she says. “We must turn from the inappropriate use of the disease model of emotional distress and understand that individuals’ psychological pain arises within social systems as well as within their own brains,” someone said.

Axé.

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