I sought psychotherapy back then because of the abusive relationship I had been trained to be in with my mother; I wanted to learn how to get out of it. I saw this statement today, and I am meditating on it: “Trauma is not the thing that HAPPENED to you, trauma is your continued emotional … More Before Reeducation
I used o have difficulty working because it made me think about Reeducation. So at this point there was an excursus in my notes, boiling Reeducation down. It said: The fourth point, on limiting intellectual power, is the one that stands out now. What was so painful about it all was the imperative to suppress … More An excursus on Reeducation
In shorthand. Important to note for this week is how I was taught that normalcy was a façade. In reality we were barely tolerated: we hadn’t been wanted, we were not liked, and it was wished that we would go away. Our successes were events carefully arranged for our amusement by our parents, and if … More Education and Reeducation
This. Axé.
I wrote: Later when I have time, I will try to consider methods of using my plan, or even a Boicean style plan, to address problems that do not have to do with the low level problems he addresses, which appear to be not liking to write, not having any experience writing, not being organized, … More When I say “reeducation,” one of the elements to which I refer is Boice
So now, the water heater is also having difficulty. It never rains, but it pours. I have misplaced my ATM card somewhere in this house, and my driver’s license has disappeared — I am not sure where. I am nonetheless announcing an innovation: a moratorium on Reeducation posts. I reserve the right to revoke it … More A moratorium on “Reeducation” posts
I think every maladaptation I have is an attempt at managing anxiety. It is why I seem so calm — I was raised in the power of people who were delusionally anxious and it was important at all times to discern the actual state of things and remain calm, while also attempting to calm others. … More How Reeducation destroyed research and more
In Reeducation, one was not supposed to be able to handle the stress of adult life. To be able to do so was “denial” of how difficult it “must really be” and, more frighteningly, indicated an absence of “feeling”. If one lacked this “feeling” one might have a very severe problem and need very severe treatment. In … More More on Reeducation
A large part of the problem, as a local friend points out, is the abusive environment. One could, theoretically, move about as freely as one does elsewhere and enjoy local delights, but one learns that it is not so simple — unpleasantness comes when you least expect it, but often, and “just avoid it” or … More Things I do automatically when abroad, and did here before Reeducation, but have a hard time doing here now.
As we know, if I watched television and went to church then I would understand the culture I live in and I would be better equipped to defend myself against it. Now I have discovered by chance another element in the education of our Reeducators: See, we were raised on 1980s movies and sitcoms, and … More Sources of Reeducation
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